My Last Tear (A Suicide Note)
Disclaimer: I am not promoting suicide in any way but rather trying to create aware ness as it is a leading cause of deaths globally.
I’m trying not to let go to the best of my abilities but i can feel myself slowly letting it. I feel consciousness slowly slipping from my grasp in a tub filled with my own blood. My wrist slit horizontally; I can feel my body getting colder as the seconds pass by. I don’t have the passion no more; I have lost all excitement i had about living. My headspace is clouded, and I don't know how to feel different.
I will rather crash now than slowly fade away into oblivion. I have been through a lot and i feel myself going crazy slowly. I feel the pain and can’t go through this again alone, I won’t recover if it was to happen, so I rather end it now than later.
I am not asking for help or begging for your pity. I want to go peacefully, leave this messy world to what I hope is a more peaceful place.
Everyone, keep trying, but please recognize and respect that some of us have to seek relief when therapy and meds make no difference. In fact, meds have made my life worse.
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As someone struggles with depression, I totally relate with everything above. Somedays are just low, so low I can’t move the whole day. Depression is a leading of suicide and it isn’t easy to deal with.
In the case of suicide, people think that no fight was involved they merely think that the person couldn’t take it and felt weak. They forget all the mental struggles the person faced because they were invisible and sometimes unspoken and unexposed to anyone. This attitude of society is wrong
“For whom I should live. I am not worth living. Who am I?
I love something and left it..didn’t made effort to get it
I loved people and left it
People loved me and i hurt them
I m not worth anything
Isn’t it better to just die. I hope death is easy
just like a switch..you turn it off..complete darkness
nothing to see then”
― Juhi
For all of us out here trying to make it one day at a time, we got us. We will never give up
You’re not alone
Help is available
